you’re not broken.

this came to me from elephant journal at a moment when I desperately needed it.  I am still not fully able to accept it all, but working my way there, I hope.

There will always be days like these. Always. Ones that make you feel like switching off the sun, crawling underneath your skin and forgetting about this whole catastrophic cantankerous world.

 Today is too much. Yesterday was more than enough. Tomorrow you just don’t want to know.


You feel broken.

Your cells feel fractured in millions of places, each one dangerously free-falling out of control, slamming hard against the wretched cold, hard floor. Your body is pulled down with them and gravity’s force menacingly keeps you in place.

Everything feels to be against you. All of nature’s elements lean in to watch while you struggle to breathe as the excruciating emotions clog up in your chest.

Sometimes it feels easier to give up and to stay under the covers, rather than stepping over the weighted moments that torment us before they pass.

But, believe me, it isn’t easier and the longer you stay this way the harder it gets to blow the dense clouds that have gathered around you out of harms way.

Although you may have received a few cracks, you are definitely not broken. And I know the world can be dark at times, but there is far more light if you are willing to open your eyes and let it in.

You might have entangled with ones who twisted your love or foolishly mistook your vulnerability for weakness, but they aren’t dragging you down. You are doing it to yourself. Stop. You are more than that loss, that rejection, or the aggression and resentment that someone showed. You are more than your grief or your insecurities or your fear of being abandoned again. You are more than every minuscule or outrageous experience that has ever happened to you; you are limitless and you haven’t even tapped in to your full potential yet. 

So do not let whatever has happened so far define you, as every new encounter is a catalyst. Instead, let it catapult you ahead so that you may be carried with the waves and the wind.

You will always rise up wiser and stronger no matter how weakened you feel at the time.  

Parts of your journey may be irreparable, but you are resilient and although you may sway and bend, you will never break.

Even when people do things that hurt every fiber of your being, and you bruise and ache due to the excruciating avalanches of ice-cold cruelty that freeze you to the bone, as soon as your passion for life rages inside, you will quickly thaw out.

Existing on this planet can be harsh at times but the burning bright flame inside you that originated from magnificent exploding stars will never die out. It just temporarily fades when protective layers of armor guard it.

Your fire is safe. It has been glowing for billions of years so it’s not going to quit on you now.

You have to keep moving however rough the road gets.  

Shake up and awaken every cell…

Put up the fight of your life and search for any missing pieces. You won’t need to look far as you are not lost, just wandering a little off track. 

Look into the eye of the storm and recognize the reflection at the center. That’s where you are. In the safest, most secure place. The spinning, vibrating hurricane is twirling on the outside, taking care of you.

Do not glance forward or back right now, remain calm, harmonious and at one as the bewildering force of the universe, that is chaotic at times, is now holding you tight. It will always come when you call, although, it will also unexpectedly arrive to test you, usually through encounters with people who are not aware how valuable and cherished and essential you are. But, you will always emerge essentially altered so you have to surrender to your self and never doubt your worth. Make sure you disregard that noise that frantically tries to destabilize you. 

You may stumble and falter but you must keep going. You might even fall apart but each shattered piece knows where it belongs and will find its way back. The volcanoes erupting in your veins will slowly simmer back down.

You can break through and conquer this. It’s only your repeating, menacing thoughts and beliefs that are keeping you trapped in a cycle—by telling you that you can’t. Bend and twist them and turn them around or throw them right out. They are keeping you stuck where it feels familiar.

The incessant ramblings that are holding you down are challenging you to stand straight and question them, to regain the reigns and fix your crown. You are in control. Those triggered thoughts and old beliefs are not the truth, they are just an option and one you can choose to forget. It’s time to stop allowing them to drain your energy—you have the power to create and decide.

You’ve barricaded yourself in so that no one sees how damaged that delicate but fiercely pounding heart of yours is and you’ve hidden that contagious curve in your smile for far too long.

You’ve forgotten your unique multidimensional significance.

That’s okay. You needed some space and time. But those people out there now need your laughter. And they need your tears. They need you, however you show up.

There is someone specifically out there who needs you more than you know.

More importantly you need you.

You may not realize this right now, but I promise you, you are vital gift to the earth.

I’m just here to remind you to feel everything deeply. Feel it all, let it run over you. Scream if you want to and let it all out, but don’t ever be afraid of love. The stirring in your soul is necessary. Allow it to move through you and out so it touches everything that exists, regardless of proximity.

Find some thread, stitch up your wounds with colorful thread and create a beautiful tapestry all over your skin. Piece yourself together like a beloved and patchwork blanket and watch how the battle scars that adorned your mind miraculously heal.

“There is a crack in everything. That’s how the light gets in.” ~ Leonard Cohen

 

You are not broken. You are breaking through.

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How Each Sign of the Zodiac Expresses Their Anger

I posted about how the signs experience sadness a few days ago, and now thespiritscience.net has posted this one about anger, also helpful….

It doesn’t matter who you are. Everyone gets angry from time to time. And when we’re angry, we tend to leave patience, humility and common sense behind, even if only for a moment. Maybe once we realize how we typically respond to things that anger us, we can work on delivering a better response.

So, here are some of the typical things each zodiac sign usually has to work on when it comes to acting out in anger.

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Arians are definitely one of the quickest to anger. After all, they are one of the fire signs. They have a burning fire within them and at times you may see bouts of that fire bursting forth in anger. This is their dark side.

They don’t usually start arguments with people, but they certainly know how to end them. At times they can be impatient and volatile, especially when pushed past their limits or when they are forced to deal with something before they believe they are ready.

But, as quick as they are to anger, they are usually just as quick to calm down and even forgive those who angered them in the first place. They are one of the signs most capable of ‘forgiving and forgetting’.

 

Taurus-
Taureans are usually quite fair tempered creatures. They tend to be very slow to anger. But when they do get angry, you had better watch out! Disloyalty, inequality, betrayal, those are the sort of things that really get on their nerves. Other than that, most Taureans don’t want to waste their time and energy on getting angry.

shutterstock_52556008When they do get angry it can take a long time for them calm them down again. It’s best to give them space until that time.

Unless of course, Taurus is calm enough to try and talk things out. If they are, give them a chance to get their thoughts out in the open, otherwise you may anger them even more for refusing to listen.

After the argument is over, they are usually very quick to forgive, unless of course you’ve done something extreme that they consider unforgivable.

They will still be civil with you in most cases afterward, but you won’t be able to bring the relationship back to what it once was.

 

Gemini-
As you probably already know, Geminis are known as the Twins. You may as well flip a coin when it comes to how they’re going to react when in anger.

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They may seem completely calm and centered when their words of anger cut you to the core.

Geminis LOVE to talk. That’s usually what they do best. When in anger that does not change.

When you piss off a Gemini, get ready to be chewed out. Anger may start as rudeness or sarcasm, but it can quickly change to screaming, yelling and throwing things.

Luckily, they don’t tend to stay angry for an extended period.

As long as you don’t tell a Gemini what to do or how to act, they may be able to forgive and forget.

 

Cancer-
Cancers are a very sweet, understanding, loyal and loving sign. And that’s really all they want in return. If they feel unloved, unappreciated or offended by something, the first sign is usually sulking.

If you’re not getting the hints, it may evolve into shutterstock_52555993passive aggressive behavior. If you’re still not getting the hints, they will more than likely go into hiding.

Cancers in recluse mode may act as though they really do not want to talk to you, but that is usually just a ruse. In most cases they actually do want to work things out, they just don’t want to be the ones making all the effort.

If you ignore them or blow them off, they will take it as even more evidence that you don’t care, thus doing more damage to the relationship.

Since they are so loving and loyal, they expect their loved ones to be as well. They will usually forgive you not long after, so long as the argument isn’t over something major.

 

Leo-
When it comes to arguments with Leo’s, it’s all about who can roar the loudest. Just about anything will set them off, and when it does, they will certainly let you know about it.shutterstock_52555996

They will kick, scream, rant, rave, throw things around the house and make quite the spectacle.

They will probably say a bunch of hurtful things that they don’t actually mean too, so don’t take it personally. They’re just trying to get their anger out in the best way they know how – by venting.

After they’ve cooled off they won’t hold a grudge. In fact, they are probably most likely to come back in the room soon after, acting like nothing happened at all. They are quick to anger, but they are quick to move past it as well.

 

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Virgos are one of the most patient and loving signs. They can take an unbelievable amount of abuse from people before they start showing signs of frustration and anger.

They try to avoid doing so because they aren’t very comfortable expressing shutterstock_52555990their anger. But when they need to let it out, their emotions can get very intense.  Their anger can be so strong, you may even feel it from the other room.

Virgos are still quite passive aggressive when angry too. They usually avoid confrontation and arguments at all cost. They find it much easier to walk away when they are angry, rather than sticking around to scream it out.

Virgos are also very forgiving, and won’t really hold a grudge. Then again, they don’t tend to forget either.

They are far less likely to trust someone after they realize their trust has been misplaced.

 

Libra-
Libras is the peacekeeper sign, so the scales are the perfect symbol for them. They always try to keep things equal and well balanced in their relationships, so anger and outbursts are avoided at all costs. That’s why they tend to keep quiet and bottle everything up until their lose their cool.

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However, since they are one of the most sensitive signs, just about anything under the right circumstances can set them off.

When angry words start flying around, that’s when Libra usually makes a run for it. They may say a few choice words, but usually those words are shouted as they’re running off.

Even at the verge of their rage, they will hold back, think twice, and put up the sweetest poker face they can muster.

If you hurt them enough times, they will certainly hold a grudge.

They also tend to take note of all the things they hate about a certain situation, and then mentally file them away to use against you later on.

 

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Want to know if a scorpio is angry? Watch their eyes. They tend to let you know with their eyes a lot sooner than they do with the rest of their body language. Like a few signs we previously mentioned, Scorpio is another one that tends to keep shutterstock_52556002 (1)their anger on lockdown. For a time, anyway.

They tend to get angry in their head first, then they plan their next actions accordingly.

Sometimes their only action is to chew you out in their mind without saying a word. Other times, they are just quiet because they are planning their next argument in advance.

This usually happens long before they are angry enough to explode. So, if you see the angry eyes and then they get really quiet – it’s probably best to give them some space until they seek you out to talk things over.

If you try and push them into sharing their thoughts too soon, you may regret it.

Scorpios are also one of the signs that are more likely to hold long term grudges. They may forgive, but they will never, ever, forget.

 

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Dishonesty, disloyalty, cruelty and hate speech of any kind is usually enough to anger a Sagittarius, and when a Sag gets angry they take no prisoners. When you piss one off, you know it, and you better walk away. Fast. Though, they do tend to have a lot of patience with most people so you probably won’t see them get angry very often.shutterstock_52555999

The first sign of irritation before anger arises is most likely to be overwhelming sarcasm.

If a Sagittarius is getting angry, their conversation is probably just dripping with it. Most Sag’s try to keep their anger under wraps because losing their cool can make them feel quite embarrassed after they’ve calmed down.

The most important thing to watch out for, is that they don’t create drama out of boredom.

Sag’s like problem solving and working out issues, so they can occasionally create problems at home or work without consciously intending to.

 

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Capricorns are an earth sign, so they are pretty easy going most of the time. However, they can have some rigid requirements for keeping the peace at home.

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Most likely because they simply want their space to be kept how they like it.

You never know what will make a capricorn angry. You may not even notice when they first get angry either.

That’s because Capricorns also tend to keep their emotions bottled up. Especially the negative ones. They’d much rather sulk and give you the cold shoulder over yelling.

In the end, they may lose their cool for a second and make a big fuss, but they will get over it quickly.

They will usually forgive you after they tell you how disappointed they are in you.

 

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Aquarians really can’t stand to argue, especially when it comes to pointless arguments with stubborn people. They are the ones most likely to ignore you when they’re angry. They’d much prefer go for a walk or a drive rather than stick around and argue it out.shutterstock_52556014

If they can’t avoid what’s irritating them, they may feel cornered and explode out of sheer frustration.

They will then abruptly avoid you at all costs until they have calmed down again.

Or, they may just avoid you completely in the future. It all depends on who the argument is with. If it’s a new relationship, they may not see worth in the effort of repairing it.

 

Pisces-
With a Piscean it all depends on what kind of day you catch them on. If they’re already having a bad day, they may explode if you set them off.

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If their day is going either way, then most Pisceans tend to avoid confrontation at all costs.

They would much rather go have a smoke or a drink to help them calm down, rather than stick around for an argument.

If that doesn’t make them feel better, then usually a good cry will.

They are probably the sign most likely to start crying out of frustration and anger, rather than flying into a rage and smashing things. of

When it comes to grudges, Pisceans will hold them in extreme situations, but for how long all depends on the circumstances.

this. yes.

read this on elephant journal today in a post called “it’s this kind of man or none at all.”

I know the man I love, but I find this beautiful – to challenge him, to help him love me.  this gives me goosebumps.

 

Be real, raw and honest with your deepest desires, thoughts and emotions. Don’t hold back.

Spar with me.

Don’t take my shit. Call me out when I deserve it. Challenge me. Ask me the hard questions and push me into giving honest answers. Speak your truth. No matter what it is.

Tell me what I do to you. Describe in delicious detail how I make you feel and don’t be afraid to share it.

Don’t edit yourself.

Respect me and honor all the things about me that make us different.

Laugh with me and at me. Make me laugh at myself when I’m taking life too seriously. Let me know it’s okay to be silly, to be flawed, to be less than perfect, to have bad days.

Look deeply into my eyes when we make love, or when we just talk without being self conscious. Force me to hold your gaze when I let shyness get the best of me and try to break it.

Be patient…peel away the layers of everything I’ve tightly wrapped around myself.

Kiss every inch of my body. My fingers, the small of back, the nape of my neck. Skip the obvious parts and find the ones that make me shake with desire. Stay connected with me all night, even if it’s just the tips of your fingers reaching across the bed to rest on my hips.

Tell me your secrets, trusting I’ll never judge you.

Teach me something new every day.

Show me what makes your heart pound and takes your breath away. Be vulnerable and unafraid. Be tender and forceful all at the same time. Don’t be afraid to take me when you want me. Ask me for what you want.

Show me what you need and allow me to uncover the most hidden parts of you.

Play. Be adventurous. Dare me to break the rules with you.

Do love. Say it. Express it. Whisper it 100 times over in my ear.

And at the end of the day, make me feel that there will never be another after me.

“A soulful connection is one where you instantly miss each other moments after being together.” ~ Anonymous

How Each Zodiac Sign Handles Their Sadness

from thespiritscience.net

Sadness can be a difficult emotion to deal with. Different people can have different reactions to sadness.  Some of us don’t acknowledge it, some of us don’t clearly recognize it, and some let sadness become destructive.  It’s a tough journey, but learning to face and manage feelings of sadness in a healthy way can allow us to live a fuller life with more self-assuredness and sense of bravery.

Sadness in itself is a controversial topic. It is often paired as the opposite of happiness, and what exactly is happiness? How do we define it? Happiness too can be a subjective experience.

Sometimes we may be in search of constant feelings of extreme joy and bliss, without a trace of sad feelings. Sometimes we  may choose feelings of sadness without realizing, as it can at times feel more comfortable. As understandable as these points are, these can become unhealthy ways to relate to happiness or sadness, that don’t actually serve us.

That being said, sadness is a part of life. As one of my favourite poets Rumi says, “the wound is the place where the light enters you”.  Today we will be noting how different zodiacs may relate to sadness, and tips for how to deal with sadness in a healthy way.

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Aries people are known to be courageous, optimistic, confident and passionate. During times of sadness, their fiery natures may make them prone to making impulsive decisions, as well as masking their pain with burning anger.

One way an Aries can serve their greater good while in this state is to ask themselves before making decisions, “will this [decision, action etc] really serve me?”

This can bring their conscious awareness to consider such a question, and make better decisions for themselves. Another way to better tune in to their feelings, is to meditate.

This can allow them to get better in touch with their emotions. If the stillness feels too daunting, perhaps planning an adventure where they can redirect their energy can help.

Taurus (April 20th – May 20th)

Taurus people are known to be dependable, practical, devoted and responsible. When experiencing sadness, they want to be shutterstock_308306837alone. While Taurus people are known for being patient, during times of sadness they may find their patience waning.

Another situation that may happen for Taurus during sadness is that they may sleep and eat more and irregularly, and “indulge in their vices to cope”.

While Taurus like being alone in their sadness, it may help them to share their thoughts and feelings with a trusted friend or a professional counsellor. This can help them better cope with their pain.

During such times, practicing self-compassion, and realizing that we all experience hurt, pain and sadness at times can help.

Recognizing our pain as a human experience, while realizing it also as an individual experience, can keep us from falling victim to our pain. Another recommendation would be to keep a routine, as that can keep us from falling deeper into our feelings of sadness in a way that doesn’t serve us. Once again, asking “will this act really serve my best interest?”, can keep us from making bad decisions.

 

Gemini (May 21st – June 20th)

Gemini people are known to be affectionate and curious thinkers. During times of sadness, their thinking abilities may be on full speed. Sometimes this over thinking can be a way to distract themselves, which Gemini tries to do when sad.  They may also fall into depression.shutterstock_382594525

When facing these periods of over thinking, what the brain often really needs is just relaxation. I know it’s easier said than done, however with practice, and just the knowing that we don’t need to have all the answers today, that becomes possible.

One effective way for a Gemini experiencing this tendency to get through this period is through journaling.

This is an excellent way to give our thoughts another home, and time to sort themselves out. You will likely feel a lot of relief after doing this activity. When you’re ready, it can also be helpful to speak to a trusted friend, whose advice you trust and who will be objective. They can help us have a better understanding of the situation.

 

Cancer (June 21st – July 22nd)

shutterstock_121986982Cancer people have a highly active imagination, incredible sense of loyalty, and are naturals in the art of persuasion.

They also experience emotions deeply. Due to this reason, times of sadness may feel especially heavy. They may experience a lot of tears and feelings of loneliness. Joining a support group can be helpful, as it allows an avenue of connection, and a safe place to share strong feelings.

Doing grounding exercises can also be helpful. Taking time to connect with nature, and the Universe, or a Higher Power can deepen a sense of support and being looked after.

It can also remind us that we aren’t alone, but all connected to one another and something greater in some way. Journalling, and practicing an art is also a helpful activity.

 

Leo (July 23rd – August 22nd)

Screen Shot 2016-07-24 at 7.55.13 PMLeo people are known to be creative, passionate and warmhearted individuals.

During times of sadness, Leo can be very transparent with their emotions. Some may interpret their being open about their emotions as a form of exaggeration. They may also act or say things that hurt the people around them.

Leos are quick to bounce back from feelings of sadness. One way to cope with sadness for Leo is to use their feelings to create art.

Perhaps a poem, a painting, an idea for a book may present itself.

Also, it’s important to take individual responsibility for our feelings, and be mindful not to react in ways that hurt other people when we are feeling down.

 

Virgo (August 23rd – September 22nd)

Virgo people are known to be loyal, kind and hardworking people. When experiencing sadness, they may prefer to be alone. They also may disconnect with their emotions by engaging in actions compulsively. When experiencing anger and sadness, they may become pessimistic and blunt, maybe even mean.

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Journaling is a healthy way to connect with our emotions. Writing stories is also a way to reflect on our emotions while maintaining some level of distance.

Engaging in meditation or prayer can also help.

As for avoiding hurting others, once we can connect with the awareness that we aren’t feeling so great, we can gently give our loved ones a heads up on how we are feeling.

An “I’m not feeling my best today” can be all we need to say.  We can choose to be alone on such days, or keep conversations light.

 

Libra (September 23rd – October 22nd)

shutterstock_376051666Libra people are known for their sense of justice, diplomacy,  as well as agreeable and social natures. When experiencing sadness, Libras may feel very moody and unstable. They may not want to reveal how they really feel to others, as people view them as full of life and positivity.

They may not want to lose their image.

Self-compassion is very important especially in such times. It helps to know that sadness is a human experience, and we don’t become lesser beings by having sad moments. It will pass, if we let it.

We can reach out to a trusted friend or counsellor to discuss our problems. Also, don’t be afraid to take time off from socializing and connecting when you need to.

 

Scorpio (October 23rd – November 21st)

Scorpios have a reputation for being brave, resourceful and tenacious. When experiencing sadness, they don’t bother hiding shutterstock_284270072it. They may have mood swings and their emotions may affect others.

When feeling such powerful charge of emotions, it can be helpful for us to take time alone for ourselves.

The tenacious and resourceful nature of the scorpio is sure to pose solid suggestions in how to best take care of our situations.

Better managing our emotions when we are alone can help us better manage our emotions when with other people.  This can help avoid a lot of conflict and hurt feelings.

Meditation and journaling can also help. When experiencing strong emotions, speaking to a counsellor can also help tremendously.

Sagittarius (November 22nd – December 21st)

Sagittarius people are known to be funny, generous and idealistic people. They can experience very heavy emotions and become very depressed when feeling low.

However, they can also be resourceful in knowing how they can feel better when feeling sad and low. Sometimes this can lead to substance abuse; However, it doesn’t have to!

While Sagittarius people tend not to seek support when feeling sad, turning to a trusted friend or counsellor can be very helpful for them.

Dialogue with a good counsellor can become a way to open up to the sound advice of others as well as ourselves, and pull ourselves back into our magic.

 

Capricorn ( December 22nd – January 19th)

shutterstock_342869825Capricorn people are known to have good self-control, and be disciplined and responsible.

When experiencing sadness, they may feel hopeless and pessimistic. Like Gemini people, Capricorn people may also begin to overthink too much in face of sadness.

While experiencing such emotions, it helps to reach out to people we can trust. It helps to surround ourselves with a positive support team.

Speaking to a good counsellor can also help, as they can suggest exercises we can use to feel more positive and optimistic as well as have a more objective understanding of a situation.

 

Aquarius (January 20th – February 18th)

Aquarius people are known to be unique, progressive and independent people.

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They are thought to detach from their emotions, and live in their heads. During times of sadness, they may engage in this same approach, and avoid talking about their emotions.

It can be helpful for Aquarius people to journal their thoughts, and seek ways to connect with their emotions in a healthy way.

They can use their experiences to become more evolved on their journey, and also help other people.

 

Pisces (February 19th – March 20th)

Pisces people are known to be wise, compassionate and artistic souls. During times of sadness, they may  become stuck in negative emotions, and re-live past hurts. They may become very pessimistic.

shutterstock_313627550Engaging in acts of self-compassion can help us nurture our hurt feelings before they cry out even more.

Practicing meditation, speaking to a counsellor, and journaling can help us make sense of what we know, and make peace with what we do not know, and move forward on our journeys.

Here were some basic points on how each of the zodiac signs reacts to experiences of sadness, and some suggestions that can help them better manage their emotions.

Hopefully by engaging in such practices during tough times, we can navigate ourselves through seas of tough times requiring faith in the unknown, self-understanding and self-care!

pain, and all that goes along with it.

so.  hi.

I’ve taken a pretty apparent hiatus from writing here and being online in general – not on purpose.  in early December, some things came to light and happened in my personal life that honestly devastated me.  I never expected to feel this much pain – and when faced with personal pain, I always thought I’d be strong enough to bounce back easily.

this experience has proven me wrong.

at the same time, I am learning – in the hardest way possible – some important things.  I’m learning about my limitations and negative tendencies as a partner and friend.  I am learning about the deep challenges of my 7-ness (enneagram) – my tendency to avoid pain and hardship at all cost, and how sometimes, I have to sit in the middle of it and fully feel this pain to know what my heart really wants.

it has not been easy and it’s still not easy.  weeks later, I am at a point where I can get out of bed, but it’s not easy.  I can eat, but it’s not easy and I have to make it happen.  I can work, but I struggle to be with people very much.  I can sleep – with the aid of some medication.

I’m not a pro.  in some areas, I am a novice, and I am still learning.  I suppose the most important thing is that I accept it, and welcome it, and start from scratch anywhere I can.

there are things I honestly don’t know how to face right now.  I have moments of clarity when I truly feel that this is a turning point – when I have a true chance to burn away the old and negative, and build something gorgeous and holy.  there are others when I think I am never going to make it out of this labyrinth of shit, when I feel like I’ll be angry and hurt forever.

I know that what matters now is the choices I make – the choices we make are what define us.  I don’t want to give up on what means so much to me, but I refuse to be weak forever.

I know what I am worth.  I know what I can do and be.   I know it means a lot of self-exploration, facing the ugly, and changing.

I have been surprised, in a sad way, that some of the people I expected to care and reach out to me during this time have been so silent.  that was/is depressing, and I hope it doesn’t mean I have other lessons to learn in those areas.

but, on the other hand, I am really grateful to several of you who have checked in often, given selflessly, encouraged me, and asked me to start writing and sharing again.  each time, I initially said that I just can’t share or give or anything from a sort of shattered place, only to have you guys tell me that maybe this is exactly when I should share.  maybe you’re right.  maybe this is the time I need to let it flow and share what helps.

going to do my best to be more present now, and not as buried….

and in that vein, I very much hoping this is true for me and others in 2017…..

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Calling in Sagittarius

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The challenges of last month’s Scorpio cycle were meant to strengthen your capacities for patience, perseverance and resilience. Perhaps you were reminded of your strength. You do know how to put one foot in front of the other and survive. But Sagittarius plays an entirely different game. Even if your work this month is similar, you’re meant to take it to a higher plane. In this expansive, Jupiter-ruled cycle, seek out the people, places, and texts that open your mind and get you excited about the future again. What questions have you been pondering? Where have you felt stuck? Surrender to Sagittarius and the Centaur will reward you. Now is the time to shift perspective, expand your horizons, and let your life become adventurous again!

Yippee. More items to add to your to-do list. Don’t worry. Opening to the adventurous Sagittarian deva is fun—like racing a horse across green pastures, giddy with the joy of movement. Sagittarian energy is big, buoyant, generous, and prosperous. Its concerns are honesty and wisdom. To attract the Centaur, assemble the following transcendent ingredients: Time and space to roam, a hunger for truth, the certainty that life means something.

Next: Ascend. Beam up. Climb the highest hill or building in your town, scan the horizon, let your lungs fill with fresh air, relax in this wide space. Or imagine you’re floating on the wings of an eagle, looking down on your world. Look again at whatever experiences may be challenging you. From this perspective, your luck can improve. If you’re feeling particularly frisky, lay back with open arms and shout “Take me, Sagittarius!” If this makes you weep with joy, you got the connection!

Or visit a university library. Preferably a big one. Walk through the book stacks with a quiet mind at a leisurely pace. Stop whenever you feel like it. Take a random book from the shelf and read a paragraph. Keep moving. Read the thoughts of more thinkers whenever intuition directs. Then go outside and commune with the horizon. Enjoy an exotic foreign drink when you’re done.

Or recite your gratitudes. Being thankful alters the mind much like reading books or sitting in higher spaces. It’s a powerful form of prayer. Make it a practice to list your daily gratitudes for 21 days and your world will transform. It’s not what you’re grateful for that makes the magic–it’s just the juice of gratitude itself. Thank the anonymous hands who built your house, who planted the trees on your street, who sat in a factory and made your shoes, for everything and everyone who brought you where you are today.

And finally, if you’re not feeling buoyant enough yet, buy some helium-filled balloons. Take them for a walk in the park, not knowing when the moment will come when you’re inspired to let them go, just so you can watch them sail into the sky and disappear. Of course, you’re always free to innovate. In whatever way you choose, at the Sag New Moon, call in the spirit of this expansive and prosperous sign.

Sagittarius’s Response

Waiting for the response is the fun part. No way can I predict it for you. But in the next few days or even weeks, keep your eye out for Sagittarian visits. You might receive a surprise gift. Maybe an opportunity to travel. If you have an urgent question, you’ll likely receive a wise answer. Or a flash mob could suddenly sing the Hallelujah chorus in your local food court. A stranger may say your name with such a delightful foreign accent, it transports you to the other side of the world. The Sagittarius Centaur could arrive as a belly laugh, big and warm as Zeus. Or maybe it just hits you—that you’re in falling love with your life all over again. However the Centaur appears, let the meaning of the visit touch you deeply.

this Sagittarius new moon: be the light

snippet from Mystic Mamma

NEW MOON in Sagittarius aims to ignite a flicker of hope in the darkness.

“…emerging out of the darkness of our Shadows and our fears…into a more light-filled, optimistic energy…

This is the sign and the time to emerge out of our self-centered vision of life into a much broader view of life that includes others as well as the Earth and all her children.

Sagittarius is all about the Truth.
Sagittarians are Truthspeakers and Truthseekers.
Sagittarians always have a goal in mind.

That’s the arrow that this celestial archer aims at the heart of the matter…”
CATHY PAGANO

 

The Purpose of an Altar: Intention and Intuition

thought this was a good reminder from DailyOm

 

The purpose of having an altar in your home can be as simple as reminding you to take time for serenity each day.altar.JPG

If you didn’t grow up with an altar in your home, having an altar now may seem like an exotic and unattainable idea. Yet having an altar does not have to be complicated or difficult, nor does it need to be based on a religion or a set of ideas that don’t seem to relate to you. An altar can be a simple, personal expression of what you want to focus on right now. You do not have to build anything or take up a lot of space. You do not have to buy anything new or follow a complex set of instructions to create your altar. All you have to do is have a general understanding of what an altar is and the willingness to allow yourself access to this wonderful, ancient tool of transformation.

At its most essential, an altar is simply a raised structure that serves as a resting place for meaningful objects. It focuses the eye and provides a place for contemplation and, if so desired, ritual. All of these elements can be quite simple. One idea for a simple altar is a pot with a bulb planted in it, set on a box. This altar to growth can act as a reminder to you that all living things bloom in their time. A simple ritual might be to write down dreams you would like to see come to fruition on scraps of paper. You might place these scraps of paper in the box, or under the flowerpot, or in an envelope you prop against the pot. As the flower grows, so will your dreams.

If you look around your home, you may find that you have already created altarlike arrangements without even really thinking about it; this is something we humans do quite naturally. A candle, a decorative box, and a vase of flowers are just a few of the common household objects that lend themselves naturally to the creation of an altar. Simply add intention and intuition, and you have created your first altar. Remember that it isn’t necessarily about the objects you place at your altar–it is the time you spend with it daily, taking the time to be with it for your sacred time.

finding your tribe

I thought this email was really fitting given my current journey and soul work…

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from DailyOm

We all desire to find our tribe, a community of those that feel comfortable to us and nurture our journey.
Part of being human is the search for an individual identity. Bound to this strong need to establish a unique persona, however, is an equally intense desire for acceptance. It is when we find our individual tribes that both are satisfied. Our tribe members are those people who accept us as we are without reservation and gladly accompany us on our journeys of evolution. Among them, we feel free to be our imperfect selves, to engage unabashedly in the activities we enjoy, and to express our vulnerabilities by relying on our tribe for support. We feel comfortable investing our time and energy in the members of our tribe, and are equally comfortable allowing them to invest their resources in our development.

The individuals who eventually become members of your unique tribe are out there in the wide world waiting for you. You are destined to find them, one by one, as you move through life. Sometimes your own efforts will put you in contact with your future tribe members. At other times, circumstances beyond your control will play a role in helping you connect with your tribe. If you look about you and discover that you are already allied with a wonderful and supportive tribe, remember that there are likely many members of your tribe you have not yet met. On the other hand, if you feel you are still living outside of your tribe, broadening your horizons can help you find your tribe members.

However your life develops after you come together with your tribe, you can be assured that its members will stand at your side. On the surface, your tribe may seem to be nothing more than a loose-knit group of friends and acquaintances to whom you ally yourself. Yet when you look deeper, you will discover that your tribe grounds you and provides you with a sense of community that ultimately fulfills many of your most basic human needs.

make the most of this taurus full (super)moon!

from the astrotwins

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Plant those feet on solid earth: The November 14 supermoon in earthly Taurus grounds us after an emotional rollercoaster of a week.

As a full moon lights the skies in the sign of the tenacious and opinionated Bull, millions of people are still grappling from the shocking results of a historic election that shook the U.S. to the core. Outcome aside, we need to sharpen our knowledge of all sides of the issues at hand, and empower ourselves as advocates for what we most believe in.

We can harness the steady and persistent energy of Taurus, refusing to be silent about injustice. Change is in the air, and this grounding Taurus energy may finally help those of us who’ve been dazed and confused get back into our bodies and sense.

This year’s Taurus full moon is also a powerful and potent supermoon. It’s the largest full moon since 1948 and if you miss it, you’ll have to wait until 2034 for the next one. On November 14, the Taurus supermoon will be at its largest and brightest when it becomes full within approximately two hours of “perigee”—the point in its elliptical orbit when it is approximately 30,000 miles closer to the Earth.

Outside of politics, this full moon can also catalyze personal goals that you’ve worked long and hard for over the past six months. If you’ve got your sights set on a target, this might be the day you go after it full-throttle, much like the “toro, toro” charging at the matador’s cape. Sensual Taurus can also help us make like peaceful Ferdinand the Bull, who sat in the field munching clover all day. So get out in nature, indulge your earthly appetites with some shopping or a decadent meal, pamper yourself (who else could use a 90-minute massage?). Don’t hate, luxuriate.

The Taurus supermoon is also called a Beaver Moon. According to the Old Farmer’s Almanac, the full moon that falls during the month of November was named after the beaver by both colonists and Algonquin tribes. The Beaver Moon marked the time of year for setting beaver traps before the swamps froze to ensure a supply of warm furs that would last the winter.

Remember that full moons are harvesting times, where we reap the benefits of the corresponding new moon that occurred six months earlier. So go ahead and grab those bounties by the er, beaver—in the most metaphorical sense, of course. Check your calendar: The seeds you planted back at May’s Taurus new moon may be ripe and ready to bear their fruit this week. It’s like the old Mexican proverb goes: “They tried to bury us. They didn’t know we were seeds.”
Bonus: The two weeks following a full moon are an extension of the “harvest” period, so work with Taurus until the end of November (and beyond if need be!) to see what arises. It’s time to roll up our sleeves and get to work.

Of course, under the headstrong and fired-up Taurus full moon, we must guard against even more extreme acts, as people dig their heels in and defend their positions, lessening the chances of productive dialogue. Take care, friends—and follow the mandate of principled Taurus to do the right thing.

In responsible Taurus style, let us all hold ourselves and others accountable for defending everyone’s humanity. And let’s hold America’s new leadership accountable for keeping everyone safe, represented and protected.

Here are eight empowering ways to invite Taurus supermoon manifestation into your life:

1. Know the rules.

Taurus is old-school and also a pragmatist at heart. Instead of reinventing the wheel or bucking the system, try a novel approach: do things the way they were designed. Our culture is obsessed with anything new, and now more than ever there’s a global call to squash the patriarchy. As a result, everything’s gotten annoyingly complicated. The Taurus supermoon reminds us that sometimes, trying too hard can muck up the whole process. At the Taurus full moon, you’ll succeed in your world-bettering and consciousness-raising endeavors with honesty, humility and good old-fashioned hard work. Following simple, thoughtful steps is the fast path to results now. But it’s going to take more than hashtag activism: it’s going to take real nose-to-the-grindstone effort.

2. Practice radical presence.

The idea of “being in the moment” can sound like a platitude; something your yoga teacher says before everyone rushes off post-Savasana to check their iPhones. The Buddhists know that being Zen is achieved by finding the rhythm, flow and grace in the mundane—the notion of “washing your bowl” or “chop wood, carry water.” Taurus governs the zodiac’s house of daily routines and is also ruled by sensual Venus. At the Taurus supermoon, find beauty in boredom, wisdom in waiting, holiness in the humdrum and the test within tolerance. We always joke that enlightenment isn’t measured by how long we can meditate, but that it’s enduring the crazy without losing our cool. Try to breathe through something that seems really dark and just plain crappy right now. Remember: it’s always darkest before the dawn.

3. Embrace your inner material girl (or guy).

Taurus rules the zodiac’s second house of work money, earned income and material prosperity. It may be considered gauche to flaunt wealth, and part of the New Age culture is definitely an unspoken disdain for consumerism—well, outside of approved brands these days (don’t get us started). Understandably, capitalist greed is wreaking major havoc on our planet. But we’re still “spiritual beings having a human experience”…and that means we live in a three-dimensional world, reliant on our five senses. At the pleasure-loving Taurus supermoon, spending money is a way of affirming the universe’s generosity by enjoying its tangible bounty. It sends a message to the universe: I trust you to take care of me! Bonus: We could all probably benefit from indulging in a little retail therapy right now.

If you struggle with fear or scarcity around money, the Taurus full moon is a reminder that money is energy, and we have to put it back into the universal supply by keeping it in circulation.

Indulging yourself is a must under this lunar spell. “Where is the joy in life without a taste of the finer things?” asks Taurus. Treating yourself like royalty sends a powerful message of “I’m worthy” to the psyche. Since Taurus governs our self-esteem, this luxe boost will be well timed. But nothing flashy or over-the-top please. Taurus is about timeless elegance and tasteful choices.

4. When in doubt, follow your nose!

Sensual Taurus knows the power of subtle cues, like the texture of luxe fabrics, the richness of gourmet food, and the olfactory power of a fine eau de whatever. Taurus energy is particularly tuned into the sense of smell. You might head to a perfumerie with a blending bar and develop your own signature scent. If you’re more into the natural, play with essential oils until you find the right combination. Your skin’s pH also makes a difference. Get samples of scents you like and let them sit on your wrist for a few hours to see how they change. A spray from the bottle alone will not be enough to determine if a scent is right for you. Set up a diffuser in your house so you’re bathed in the glorious aromas the moment you walk through the door. Take a deep breath in and allow the aromas to gently relieve the stress and anxiety you are undoubtedly experiencing. Ahh—now isn’t that better?

5. Shout it from the rooftops.

Taurus rules the throat (and the throat chakra) and this expressive full moon wants us to use our voices. Whether you’re campaigning for a cause, singing karaoke, or finally letting someone know how you REALLY feel, verbal expression is the name of the game now.

Caveat: full moons are highly emotional times, so if an unfiltered rush of feelings could cause a meltdown, vent to a neutral third party before storming off on a tirade. Remember that the raging Bull can do damage upon seeing red. A little anger management goes a long way. How can you get your point across in a way that is proactive rather than destructive? Meditate on that, then speak your piece.

If your words haven’t been getting the response you desire, use the Taurus supermoon to bring your throat chakra back into balance. Chanting and singing can help with this, as can drinking lots of water to bring more flow to the throat. This chakra is associated with the color blue. Wear a choker with blue stones or slip on an azure turtleneck. Make more of a point to listen this week too (even when you don’t agree with what you’re hearing), as gathering information from all sides can help you better shape your words.

Toning, or sound therapy, is also a great healing modality. For something really cutting-edge (and oh-so Taurus), check out The Integratron, an amazing structure built on a geomagnetic vortex in the Mojave Desert, where visitors experience an hourlong “sound bath” from quartz crystal singing bowls played at waves to match each chakra. (We visited ourselves on 11-11 last year and it was like we’d been called home to the Mothership).

6. Affirm your values.

What do you believe in and stand for the most? It’s time to get behind it! Be it gender equality, women’s rights, human rights or civil liberties, Taurus governs self-esteem and values. No, you don’t have to be bullish about your morals (especially since the Taurus full moon falls barely a week after Election Day). But having a guiding principle or two can give your life shape and direction. Be sure to practice what you preach—and if you’re preaching, make sure that you are informed. If you’ve been loosey-goosey about your values, ground yourself in a mantra or a simple set of ideals that lend you some dignity.

7. Find out what’s REALLY going on.

Because the Taurus supermoon moon falls during investigative Scorpio season, people can get riled up in an effort to expose what’s really going on behind the scenes. Often, the no-bulls*** Bull can take down one of society’s “sacred cows.” While we love Taurus energy for its sensible, bottom-lining approach, too much of this can veer into bullheadedness or black-and-white thinking—or even bullheaded acts of rage that are outright scary and unacceptable.

However, the Taurus supermoon does push us into uncomfortable terrain, asking us to look beyond idealized views. It’s time to open our eyes and to step outside our bubbles. The Taurus full moon, at its highest vibration, can help us champion integrity without destroying anyone’s character along the way.

8. Be a treehugger.

You don’t have to be a patchouli-wearing hippie to get down with Mother Nature today (although that’s fine…if you promise to employ a light touch on the body oil). Earthly Taurus is the second sign of the zodiac, and rules our rootedness, helping us develop the ability to build and manifest from a solid foundation.

Nothing represents that kind of stability better than a hundred-year old tree towering over our heads. If you can’t bring yourself to wrap your arms around that trunk, sit underneath it or lean on it for a bit. Visualize yourself absorbing its strength, security, ability to grow and regenerate. Thank the tree for its lessons, take a picture of it to remind you that nature is resilient and abundant—and so are you. And hey, if you want to meet a friend for a matcha and vegan tapas afterwards, we wouldn’t blame you a bit.